For the first time in a half a century -
yes I am that old - I am not in in a worship service on Easter. In fact, I cannot remember a time when I was
sick on Easter. Easter is my favorite
holiday, and I love worshiping with other believers on this special day. Yet on this Easter God has made me more aware
of the profound gift God’s people have received in the resurrection of Jesus. This awareness has come through the health of
my father and the loss of a son.
A week ago today, mom called and said
she had to call an ambulance as dad could not get himself out of his
chair. After testing and a couple X-rays
they found that he had pneumonia and would be in the hospital for a while. On Maundy Thursday we got him home and
settled in his favorite chair. In the
process it became clear that I needed to stay for a few days. At 81, my rough and tumble missionary dad,
was very weak and confused.
As I type these words, he is once again
in his chair. He is moving better, but
still needs help getting up and one of us walks close behind him when needs to
get to the bathroom. He is extremely weak and in all probability his muscles
and his mind will continue to weaken.
Words cannot express how difficult this is for me. My dad really is my hero! He has been a mentor and a dear friend. He
has been a gift of grace that has allowed me to have a clearer picture of my
heavenly Father. The reality of losing
him is truly depressing!
If I were not completely convinced of the
promise of the resurrection, I don’t know what I would do. As I look at his
frail frame the resurrection of Christ gives me confidence of his future
resurrection! One day, he like all believers will receive a new and better body
that will be perfect in every way!
20 But in fact Christ
has been raised from the dead, the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep.
21 For as by a man
came death, by a man has come also the resurrection of the dead. 22 For as in Adam all
die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive . . . 42 So is it with the resurrection of the dead.
What is sown is perishable; what is raised is imperishable. 43 It is sown in
dishonor; it is raised in glory. It is sown in weakness; it is raised in power.
44 It is sown a
natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there
is also a spiritual body.[1]
When Lent began however, it was not my
dad that was on my heart and mind, but our son Noah Zachary. His little headstone sits at the foot of the grave
site where dad's physical body will one day be laid to rest. When we lost Noah almost 15 years ago, it was
my dad’s request that he be buried at the foot of his grave-site And since it is a private cemetery in the hills
of East Tennessee we were able to do just that.
There is not an Easter that goes by that
my wife and I don’t reflect on our little man.
Each year we ponder what he would be like in whatever age he would have
been. This year we had an early reminder when a friend sent us a picture they had taken when they came across
his grave. With our other son away at
college, the reminder of his loss seemed to have a deeper sting.
[1] The Holy Bible: English Standard Version.
2001 (1 Co 15:20-22, 42–44). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.
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